Kayleigh

LK Bennett… Who Do I Think I Am? Big day. The new stilettos have arrived. They’re here to replace my faithful, much-loved, definitely overworked M&S classics. You know the pair — the dependable ones you buy again and again because when you finally find heels that work , you cling to them like your last wig cap. I think I was on my 4th… maybe 5th pair? Honestly, I stopped counting. They were the heel. And then — betrayal. Discontinued. Just like that. No warning. No counselling offered. So here I am, apparently an LK Bennett girl now. Who knew? This feels dangerously close to “I summer in the Cotswolds.” Side-by-side comparison in the photo — heel height is technically the same. But don’t be fooled. The LK Bennetts mean business. The ankle is tighter, and instead of gently flattening off like my M&S comfort blanket, they keep rising and push you forward. And by forward, I mean forward . The posture changes instantly. Shoulders back. Hips activated. Suddenly I’m not just walking...

Another time without going out Its been a long while since I had a chance to dress freely, in theory I had between Wednesday and Saturday, but having travelled home late on Tuesday night, and repeated late work meetings on each day, I didn't really get a proper chance to get dolled up with make-up etc until Friday night and late on that day too. I worked from home, and in the morning I did my legs using Epilady, I think this turned out to be a good move compared to waxing strips (when I have a lot of time) or razor (when I need to do it in a rush). While I do like waxing strips because it is very complete, I've so often had to deal with lingering traces. It took about an hour, and I did go over with a razor after just to do panty line and make sure nothing was missed. Either way - it worked really well with legs feeling very smooth all weekend (even now as a type) where razor areas can be felt to the touch within 12 hours. I then really had to work for the day, so while I was i...

  On Thursday managed to get it together to do full makeup and a nice outfit and all. I only really had a few hours plus needed to do thing around the house, so not enough time to get out anywhere. I did go onto Birchplace/eblue and paraded my look in the Webcam room - mostly because its easy. I even took out my prop at one point, but only to tease a little nothing; seemed to get a good response. While all that was going on I was also in a the social room on tvChix.. and I found out someone had blocked me ! - actually someone I quite respected too. So was a bit surprised, this has never had that happen to me before. I think I know why it happened, and looking at the blockers point of view I sort of understand but the whole things made me feel quite down about the community - I had always hoped we were supporting and looking out for one another - now I am not so sure.

On Monday fulfilled one of my curious fantasies - "getting caught in the rain" .. ok I confess I dressed in a sexy little outfit with a seemed stockings, patent heels, black long sleeve bodysuit and short tartan skirt and went outside deliberately. As the rain came pouring down saturating my long hair and every item of clothing I was wearing. As I came in dripping, I caught myself in the mirror .. fully bedraggled - I liked the look; I can't say I know why .. but I did. Tuesday was quiet. Wednesday similar outfit - but with pink tartan rather than butterscotch. Actually, other than combining out my hair, and a bit of prancing around. not so much; but I had fun. Then later I picked up a package of knickers from H&M.. satin thongs, hope they are a good fit as its been perhaps a decade since I last bought thongs I was really happy with.

  Having discovered the tan stockings I was wearing are not a pair, I thought it was high time I got on top of things. After years of promising that I would get around to it, I have been through my box of hosiery this morning. Untangling, then sorting first by colour tan, white and black and then separating out the straight tops, lace tops, fishnets. Those little bags your get for liquids in an airport turn out to be just the right size for a pair. I needed to change the bags, as the plastic that stockings come it is sticky edge and delicate so, without it just get a mess of tangled stockings and can never find the right ones; when I need them for an outfit.

Did't have any planned meetings, so dressed as I like; eventually got around to doing makeup; bit rushed, skipped eyeliner and used the Lancome mascara; which is much lighter then the Dior Show I normally use. Had a bit of time chatting, and really   just got on with doing my day job; But it was nice, feel more confident when have make up too less worried about being seen.

Correcting a spelling... Finally, years after I first adopted full t-girl name I have managed to fix the spelling on Flickr! It was my mistake; I had been using the abbreviated name Kaye as login only a couple of years into creating logins in a feminine identity. I think I was pretty standard, I wanted a name that was close enough to my boy name that I would respond without thinking and that wasn't the name of anyone I knew or had known in my life; I want people to know I am my own thing, not a replica of someone else no matter how much I admire or am influenced by others. But then later, many services needed a full name, so thinking about "porn-star name" I took the street I grew up on; but the abbreviated name didn't roll right with it.. "Kaye Temple" and then I remembered the pet name one of my sisters used to call me .. unfortunately, I didn't know the spelling and when I searched kayeleigh as a name, Google decided that it was a valid spelling, as w...

Come-down When the drugs you've taken the previous night wear-off, they call it a come-down. Today, as January draws to a close, I have that sort of feeling again.. while it might sound like little happened, I only went outside dressed once on Saturday, the emotional tension surrounding the build-up, frustrations and activity was a lot. A pair of shoes arrived today,.. too late for this time around, but I am hoping they will look good for the next adventure out. Was also a sombre day, as I sat for the first hour of the morning combing out my Henry Margu wig; only to find the fringe has come apart - I am not convinced I have the skill to fix it. For the 3 days of thrill, I think I totted up a spend of £1030.07 on new wig, clothes, shoes, stockings and makeup. Of that perhaps the least value for money was on stockings, as seem of have ordered many only seemed stockings; while all great quality, I only use on rare occasion; but the body suit that I ordered along-side seems to be prett...

Well I thought that after an intense few days of Kayleigh time, I'd have got it out of my system, but nothing of the sort.. am sat here working in black dress, stockings, heels.. On the bright side, am making plenty of progress with work-work,.. so decided to stay in drag until I finish.. hopefully that'll be before the meeting; when I really  should change back

Palette Paris L'Absolu Parisienne Chic First try with this new set that I bought at the airport; really happy with it .. just the colours I need to create my "natural" look (skin tones, browns, with a hint of shine. Very happy on first application, every part is make high quality, including the brushes and pencil and I could take the lot anywhere in one go. 

Day of abstinence ... Tuesday 16 Jan 2024 I spent nearly every free minute of Monday as Kayleigh. I was working, at my standing desk, dressed for work in nice white blouse, and tartan skirt. I did also _actually_ work too; but I just found that whenever I was trying to do anything that required real focus I would end up distracting myself. For example, looking online for an outfit or something. So I have decided that despite having the option for dress today, I am going to try to stay in drab.. have also promised myself no porn (yes, that is what I wrote). Actually, its not really that interesting, but acts as a form of procrastination so I want to try and control that too. Lets see how I get on.. .. will report back in 24 hours on how it went ...

Spending a lot more time as Kayleigh at the moment, am trying to get some orders together as going to be around next week inc. whole of Saturday 27th. Was looking for something to do (Social/dressed days/nights out kind of thing); have chatted to a couple of girls, not sure if it will come together .. ... as ever am just looking for a safe and fun place to be myself.

After my previous update that my libido was dropped - am starting to think perhaps thats just fine. I had a good couple of evenings as Kayleigh, once again I went on webcam (Birchplace / eblue) but other then a little flirtation nothing pervy - just chatting mostly. Finally, made a fire in the wood burning stove and sat watching TV from the 80s and 90s .. but I was happy staying up to the early hours - contented. I looked back at the pictures I took; and realised that all are pretty similar; often the same outfits in the same place perhaps that is ok.

Where did my libido go? Seems to have fallen flat on its face; things that only recently were exciting for me seem to have no impact what so ever bit like eating food that tastes of cardboard - could eat it but there is no excitement or pleasure. Is it the time of year? Cold weather? No idea. P.S. This won't stop me cross dressing, if fact in someways it better and am more likely to focus on looking good than the quick thrill. Expecting to be properly glam on Sunday and then 26th, 27th Octobe

Was expecting to have some more adventures next week, but these are cancelled - am no longer having another week alone. Bit of a disappointment as it could be a while before I get a chance to get out as Kayleigh again 😢. While am "in closet" I can still dress quite a bit; but rare are the times when I have sufficient time to do proper makeup and to get out, back home, cleaned up while still maintaining the illusion that "nothing happened".

Dressed .. online Was dressed fully yesterday.. took hours to get ready,.. but was quite pleased with my make-up. I was quite busy with work-work and hence not really able to give x-dressing my full attention - otherwise it might have been nice to get out somewhere. 

 Wig Washing Not every day can be an adventure, more often then not chores need to be done. Today, was washing my wigs; to keep them feeling flowing and natural regular washing is vital. Using revlon shampoo, balsam and conditioner in a cool hand wash. Delicately combing out once done starting at the tips and working towards the top.  While washing does revive a wig, while your natural hair grows and replenishes itself after a while wigs even washing is not enough and new wigs are needed; I quite like my look so shall be looking hard to replace like for like.

Shopping!.. finally actually ordered something... A few years ago I bought a large collection of stuff and its taken a while, to get back in the swing; but finally saw some earrings I like the look of; so have them ready for collection on Thursday .. added to my Things I have ordered  Pinterest list ..

Out and About 04 June  Got nice long time, without interruption from work calls, family visits, window cleaners or any of the things that normally prevent me from getting dressed to a level where I have even the slightest confidence to go off-site. I think its the first time I have been "out" since lock-down, which is as much about how opportunity has changed as anything related.  I gave myself a little push out of the door, once in the car seat and confident I could drive wearing the heels I was; I had no trouble setting off....   .. then I realised I had no idea where I was going or what I was going to do. I knew the objective was to push my boundaries and see how far I could go from the hidden world to the real world; it was clear to me this meant dropping slutty attire and trying to go for something broadly acceptable - but I also had no illusions that I was going to "pass" so went for try not to look too bad. I'd got most of the way to Newmarket before I ha...

Out and about for the first time since before covid Got dressed, with makeup and actually had time today; most unexpected as normally I am working or only have a short time. I had a idea about getting a photo in front of Ely Cathedral; but it was so busy some kind of market and being a bit nervous I didn't stick around. On my way back stopped off at a lake, where it was peaceful and got a small collection of photos - unfortunately most of my favourite poses are quite backlit and so don't look that great.