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Tuesday (9th); I used an immense amount of will power to not crossdress on Tuesday.. Having seen how powerless I'd become; I thought I am going to try and see if I can avoid it despite it being perhaps the last chance for a few weeks..

.. well I don't know if it improved my life exercising my will power; I was a good girl and controlled myself, meaning I was at work on time and working hard.. did I perform better in my job... no... up until that point I had been dangling the chance to cross dress in front of myself as a motivator to get work done.. perhaps it was the heat; but I got almost nothing done.  Next time I will crossdress, evidence is that I work harder when I do.


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